Once again...same story!

Ok, so I sucked at this weight thing...again...as usual...but for the first time I am actually uncomfortable in my body...my clothes don't fit the same and it's just physically uncomfortable. So starting right now..this very moment... I am a new me... no more just eating to be eating...I WILL get up at 8 am to hit the gym EVERYDAY...starting tomorrow...it will happen! I WILL drop at 5 lbs this week! I WILL drop 15 lbs by Vegas!!! I WILL be back into my smaller clothes for school!

THIS IS A PROMISE!!! I am making this to myself and I am GOING to keep it!!!!!!

starting over

Starting over yesterday was very hard! I could barely run at all!! But at least I got off my lazy butt and did it...I am going to the gym tonight for a kickboxing class and a core class...hopefully that will jump start somethings too!


Here's to good luck! :)

Same 'ol, same 'ol....

Well, I fell off the wagon...but today I looked down at my big fat ass and said...this has to stop...I was looking at pictures of me that are just two years old and wanted to cry...what happened to me...this has to stop!!!! My husband even told me that I used to be hot...LOL...he still loves me but I am just "pretty" now...not "hot" like I used to me....so....it's on... I am going to get these 20 pounds off...and my goal is to have it off by the time school starts..but that is only 2 months away so that might not be possible...so if it is off by Thanksgiving I will be ok with that...it just needs to come off soooo bad...I don't even like myself anymore...I would completely understand if my husband did not like me either...I don't even like go have sex with my husband anymore....I feel like "who would want to see this fat ass naked?"

So starting right now...this very second....I am going to stop treating myself so badly...I am going to make myself better... I love myself and it is time to show it!

Time to go run. :)

Getting better

So, I am up early off to jog again for the 2nd day in a row with Alicia! It still hurts pretty bad to run, but it is getting better each day. I hope it is sooner than later that is stops completely! I do feel much better about myself these days! My clothes fit a little better too! Ok off to run I go! :)

Running....

So yeah, I took up running...well it's more of a shuffle...I am slow as snot! BUT at least I am getting up and doing SOMETHING! Techincally, I am training for a 5k. I am doing a program called "couch to 5k". It's a 9 week program that makes you run at least 3 times a week and it builds you up from walking for 60 seconds and running 60 seconds for 20 minutes to running for 30 minutes straight! Last week was my first week. The jog/run 60 seconds was pretty tough the first day but it got easier. Today I started week 2. It is jog 90 seconds walk 2 minutes. But we don't walk 2 minutes, we only walk 60 seconds. We felt like that was better for us!! And we did it for 30 minutes instead of 20!! I feel like I did great! It sucked for the first 15 or so minutes,but it seemed to get much easier as the walk/jog went along. I even had enough steam to do my fastest sprint for about 5o yards at the end!!! I am pretty proud of myself today! I do get shin splints pretty pad, but I am hoping over time they just stop. They seem to not hurt as bad when I run on a kitty litter type track rather than a asphalt track, which we do on Sundays. I am looking into getting fitted for a good pair of running shoes as well. I pronate my feet really bad and it makes my arches hurt and my ankles hurt. So I am going to a running store prolly this weekend to check it out. I did get a pair of Asics last time I bought some shoes, because they are supposed to have the best arch support of the shoes out there...and since I bought some really good orthodics to put in them. My arches have gotten much better, but I just want the running store to let me know what else I can do, or if I need to change shoes.

I also only took in about 900 calories today! I know that is not really that healthy, but I am not hungry, so why eat!? I really need to get this weight off by August. I am going to Vegas for my friend's wedding and I want to be able to sit out by the pool and not be COMPLETELY embarrassed about my fat body! Also, I want to be able to buy new clothes to wear to work next year!! I have a bunch of old work pants that don't fit me now bc of my fat butt!!! I want to get back into those by next school year!!! Let's hope that all works out!! :)

That is all for tonight! I will come back soon to keep you posted on the running!! :)

So yeah...

Well I have said it time and time again...and I always fall off the wagon...but I have started over AGAIN today. But, today I actually did what I said I would do... I have taken charge!!! I woke up at 5:20 and started working out at 5:30 until 6!!! I did the Jillian Michaels 30 Day Shred!! It was sooo hard!! It is 3 pm and I am ALREADY sore!!! Tomorrow is gonna be really hard to do it, but I am gonna get up at 5:30 again and do it!!! The last two days I have eaten really well too!!! I still have 1000 calories left for this afternoon and supper!!! I will report back later about how its going!!

Doing Pretty Good...

Well, the last few days have been ok. Wednesday and Thursday I worked out with the p90x carido workout. Then Friday I did not have time...today I am going to try to do it, but my cyst on my overies is hurting really bad and I don't feel like moving much less working out. I ate a piece of cake at a baby shower today...oops... I should not have done that bc now I am over my 1400 calories for the day...well I have 118 left but dinner will be about 400 cals. So, I will have to try to workout at some point today to get some of those cals back!!!